Enemy of the best

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            This “bridge of hesitation”, this perennial object, has become a fixation of dread for many travelers who would rather jump off a cliff than face the inherent challenges it incases. For Ono, his reaction to the dilemma is somewhat less dramatic, as he is shamed by the fact of being seen in his indecisiveness. It seems that for Ono, the unbearable shame of being considered weak-willed has a stronger impact on him then the repercussions of not making any decision.

            To me the bridge of hesitation is something that should not be feared, but rather embraced. The very fact that there is hesitation within the human spirit speaks well of the fact that one is taking precautionary steps for self-preservation. This “preservation” incases many things of a person such as basic needs to live, survive, be comforted, and the need for safety among other things. It is the very bridge which causes us to pause in this hurried life to reflect, collect, and regroup ourselves into a cohesive and purposeful human being.

            I admit, I am and still afraid of this “bridge”, the moment of indecision and uncertainty. Perhaps I share some of the same feelings as the character Ono, in feeling shame at the admittance of such a fact. I do not fully understand as to why one would be so afraid of uncertainty other than the simple fact of not feeling in control of your life. This helplessness it seems goes against our nature and desire to conquer, obtain, and acquire knowledge to its fullest extent.

            As I shared in my first post, making the decision as to which college to go to frightened me and sent a shockwave of catharsis through my being. It was at best a rather gut-wrenching experience to say the least. This paralyzing effect surfaced throughout other areas of my life and my incapacitation not only frustrated me, but people I loved as well. I wish I could say how I traveled from point A to B at this stage of my life, but somehow I managed to make a decision. Whether it was prodding from parents, peers, or just the sheer will power, I’m not certain.

            In its healthiest form, I believe this bridge of “hesitation” or indecision can be a person’s greatest ally when it comes to making life decisions. I’m sure most of us would agree that rushing into an important decision would yield poor results. Hence, taking time to reflect and properly consider one’s life would prove most beneficial. So it is not the bridge that is the enemy, nor so much the clash between two worlds, but solely the person crossing.